I don't know what the hell happening to me...First time since all this depression make my live a pile of puke I felt happy, for long, stable, wrok, sports, fun. And now this...Some girl that I don't even know became friends with my bf...he was kind a colder to me since then or around that time, he gave rational reasons for this. About her he say that they are just friends. He had female friends before, but I never felt jelaus at least not that much. Everytime i remember that she exist I feel bad, feel pain. I trust him that nothing going on but some annoying little voice make me doubt. I just don't wan't to think about her...she now active in his forum that was down for a while and I refused to write there anymore even that I am admin because he made her a moderator in a few section. He say that she promised to help him with the forum invite people...I don't write there anymore, he will not remove her because he says that he hate that I try to control him, that I don't even know her and hate her for nothing...Yes but it's the first time I just hate someone that much. I make myself busy and don't think about her but everytime my brain have a break it imidiatly think about it, and when I on the computer I look in the forum, what she write, what he answer, search info about her and cry, scream, going crazy...like i'm possesed or something...feel pain like I'm being cut to pieses. I know that all this thinkin and interent stuff is bad, I know I will be sad and cry if i'll do it but I do it anyway, like in purpose..I just want her out of my life forever, I won't talk about it with him even that we talk about everything, i know he will try to find a solution but the only solution for me is don't get in touch with anything about her and he treasure his freedom to much to do what I want and he will thin I don't trust him that I suspect something...It's that bad that I'm preparing myself for being alone and when i'm ready to put an ultimatum, or she out of his life or I am. But I don't want this...I feel so insane...I just hope somebody will help me, perhaps show another aspect of the problem...