I need someone who can understand to tell me how I am or seem to be is okay. This is embarrassing for me to say, but I'm scared that this side of me will rear its ugly head and destroy my LIFE. I have no friends, first of all, because I feel that I only need the presence of myself, in EVERY aspect of my life. Second, I'm not afraid of anything and I'm very bold, and it scares me. I will walk up to a good looking woman with small children and try to hit on her (I'm 19!!) I've been successful before and since that time, I am OBSESSED with sex and have a nagging foot fetish, to the point where I'm not paying attention at work or school because I'm looking at a female or pondering a way to pick her up. I realize that I am good-looking, and I find myself using that as a reason for every female to want to have sexual relations with me and I CANT STOP. Until recently I've stopped my permiscous ways and decided to try to get to know this girl who was in my mind, and at the same age as me, my physical ideal. It just so happened that she was FRIGHTENED by me due to the fact that I came out of nowhere to meet her and with such enthusiasm. Everyone tells me that I wouldve been successful had I "known her," which means had I grown up with her or met her through one of her guy friends, but the sad truth is that I CAN'T MAKE ANY NW FRIENDS BECAUSE I'M SO INTO MYSELF, and I HATE IT! I'm not saying I want to be an altruist here, dont get me wrong, but I CAN'T FIND A SINGLE SOUL WHO VALUES WHAT I VALUE!! All I value is 1.) The beauty of a fit, attractive, lean, athletic body. 2.) Education, reading, art. 3.)Financial self-reliance, and 4.) Adventure! and that's it!!! I seem to come off as a joke to other guys and intimidate the females around me with my attitude, which underscores those 4 values of my life! I feel remotely alone, and no one understands. I want all the beauty out of life and all I seem to see around me is the gutter, and beautiful people with minds and mouths of the gutter! If I come off as incoherent, please tell me, I WANT TO REACH AT LEAST 1 PERSON.