Suicide is my last resort!!!

asked by kiba2531 on 4 December 2007 22:36


My nickname is Kiba and I am 19 years old. I suffer from depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, autism, chronic pain, allergies, vision problems, hearing loss, restless leg syndrome, foot/leg problems, over weight, migraines, speech problems, and cutting. I know that there are people in the world that have it worst than me but at the same time I know the life that was dealt to me straight up sucks. As a child I lived in a 2 bedroom apartment with 5 people, 3 dogs, 6 cats, 3 birds, and fish. I was abused for 12 years by my brother and others throughout my years in school I was abused, bulled, and picked on by all the people. Half way threw the school grade latter me and my parents moved into a 3 bedroom house but by then we had 7 people, 3 dogs, 9 cats, 4 birds, and fish. As the years went on I was still being abused, bulled, picked on till this day. Now I still live with my parents but there are only 3 people, 2 dogs, and 10 cats. It is not that I don't love my family but they don't understand me and my problems. I get into verbal fights with my family at least 4 times a day if not more. My parents know about my problems but don't except them so they don't except me. I try to mask everything but sooner or later I have a brake down. I have ended up in the hospital 7 times for attempted suicide but I’m feeling lucky that number 8 will do it for me. To put it playing and simple I am sick and tired of all the crap in my life. My family hates me. My past sucks. No one likes me. My best friend that considered me her son and I considered her my second mother killed herself and it’s my entire fault. I can’t stop cutting. I keep getting labeled with more medical problems. I hate myself. I am a hopeless cause, a waste of time/space/money, and an outcast in life. Well wish me Luck!!!

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Hi Kiba, I'm sorry to hear what you're going through right now. It's a big step for you to come here and voice out your feeling. Please take another step and reach out to us. Talk to us.

My friend got this book from his teacher when he was going through hard times at home and it helped him a lot. Please don't give up and look into this book. "Conquering the Beast Within: How I Fought Depression and Won... and How You Can, Too" by Cait Irwin.

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0812932471/ref=cmcrprproducttop

Take care and we are all standing by to hear you out.


answered by Mochi210 on 5 December 2007 0:45

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Please, don't do it. I don't know what else I can say, but, please, don't. Do you hate everyone and yourself because they/you don't meet up to your expectations? That they failed you? So, now, you're going to move on ahead without waiting for them?

Please, if just for me, stay and become a stronger person so you can better control what happens around you.

Please.



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dont give up please


answered by jamie12 on 16 February 2008 18:15

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I'm sorry to hear about that. Hope you will feel better. DOn't worry you are still young and has a bright future. God loves you and never leave you alone.


answered by isolated_star777 on 26 December 2007 15:05

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Not trying to add to your guilt, but when your friend died, you know how much it hurt? Think about how much it will hurt the peole that love you if you go through with this. I don't know the circumstances of her death, but you don't sound like someone who would hurt her. It can't be your fault. Even if you can't see it, there are always people who love and care for you. Things can always get better, even if it doesn't happen right away. Please keep living. It may take time, but you won't regret it.


answered by MadHatterMCR on 29 December 2007 15:38

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Yes life can deal us unfavorable hands. I used to look at the photos of Hollywood stars and feel very bitter. Why wasn't I given their looks? Why wasn't I given their wealth? Why wasn't I given their upbringing? But when I do see someone less fortunate than I, I snap out of it.

Your life is what you make of it. You're only 19 and you have the rest of your life to make it whatever you want it to be.


answered by GrassEgg on 7 December 2007 16:14

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You big idiot. The only reason they hate you is because you keep trying to kill yourself. Why not prove yourself by doing more beneficial things that might be LESS attention-seeking and do something thats WORTH looking up for? This might sound harsh, but there are people out there in worse states than you, and they aren't even flinching with the thought of suicide.


answered by Shaftronics on 7 December 2007 9:06

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