Chase's Profile
- Sex: Male
- Age: 29
- Location:
74011
Issues Chase is Interested In
- Phobia - I'm afraid of spiders, bugs, heights, total darkness, losing the peopel I care about, loneliness, illness, any kind of violence (even fake stuff on TV), breaking things, hurting people, growing old, being unloved, strangers, open spaces, any kind of physical contact, being ignored, and doing anything that might in any way make people unhappy.
- Jealousy -
- Shyness -
- Suicide -
- Stress -
Chase's Story
I dropped out of highschool at the age ofr 16 and have been a recluse since the age of 19. My overwhelming fear of the outside world has forced me into a shell of sadness and self-loathing. The only contact I have with other humans is through IMs and an online game called Final Fanasy XI.
So yeah... Be my friend! Or something. <.<
Chase's Blogs
Chase has 7 blogs. [view all]
- Final Fantasy XI - Sat, February 02, 2008 - [view]
For those of you who don't know, Final Fantasy XI is an online game where geeks and stoners from around the world meet to kill fake monsters and form hypothetical relationships. Basically, it's my way of keeping in touch with the outside world without actually having to live there. ^^; But recently, I had to quit.You see, that's where I met the person I care so much about... - Smile - Tue, January 22, 2008 - [view]
I smile all the time... and laugh, but none of it means a thing. To say I hate myself would be a drastic understatement. I loathe myself. I'm always quick to jump to negative conclusions with regard to people's feelings toward me. I'm stupid, worthless... no fun to be around at all. A friend said that the reason this person I care about doesn't careabout me is because... - Let me tell you... - Tue, January 22, 2008 - [view]
about the person I love. He's sweet, kind, gentle, loving... but he's none of those things to me. He shows me his darker side; the sadness, anguish, pain... And I love him so much.That of course begs the question: Is Chase gay? I would say no for the simple fact that I'm not attracted to either gender. I hate sex and have never been attracted to anyone else before. ... - I hate myself. I love you. - Mon, January 14, 2008 - [view]
I hate myself. I love you. I hate myself. I love you. Words echoed in my mind and whispered on my lips. I hate myself. I love you. Please, love me. Unchanging and unavoidable.I go through this routine everyday. It's a necessary act. Why, I don't know, but all throughout the day, every waking moment I'm not preoccupied with ... - Anorexia and Chase - Sun, January 13, 2008 - [view]
I first developed anorexia at that age of 9. I had always been a thin child, so no one really noticed me getting thinner. My family was wealthy, but living beyond their means. My mother would often tell me how much she worried about having enough food for our family. As the least attractive, least talented, least intelligent, and least liked member of the family, I took ...