Fallenraven1107's Profile
- Sex: Male
- Age: 19
- Location:
49021
Issues Fallenraven1107 is Interested In
- Shingle - I had shingles on my side once a couple years ago. It wasn't a huge thing or anything I just thought I'd write this up here. I do have a small scar from it though. Probably from scratching at it so much.
- Sex Addiction - I'm not sure but I think I'm addicted and apparently its been irritating my girlfriend a lot. We used to be very close and we'd do things all the time (as bad as that sounds) but now she won't even let me kiss her or anything. I'm just always in the mood when I'm around her. I'm so pathetic sometimes x_x
- Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD) - I'm completely addicted to being close to people. I can't stand being alone. If I'm alone at home I try to get online and talk to people. I need to be around people or I get depressed and lonely and start feeling pathetic and worthless, like the world hates me or something.
- Depression - I've always been really depressed about a lot of things. People always leave me, I usually end up screwing things up and people don't seem to want to be around me, and not to mention my mom recently left the family so I don't see much of her anymore.
- Break Up and Divorce - I've been dumped a lot of times, I guess I'm kind of clingy, and I'm addicted to attention or something. I can't stand being left alone without some sort of attention or something for too long or I start feeling hated, or I feel like people are disgusted with me. Like when my girlfriend doesn't want to kiss me or something (which is often nowadays) I instantly start trying to figure out whats wrong with me or what I did wrong or if she's disgusted with me now or something.
- Insomnia - I've never been able to sleep, ever since I was little. The only times I could fall asleep quickly are when I'm completely exhausted to start from. I'm kind of used to it not though.
- Jealousy - I know I'm extremely jealous. My girlfriend doesn't have much of any female friends and almost all her guy friends have a thing for her. It bothers me so much. I don't want her to think I'm a controlling jerk who doesn't want her to see her friends. But I don't want to lose her because she decided she likes someone else.
- Pessimism - I don't know, its really simple, I think very little of myself. I don't think I'm going to accomplish anything, I don't thin kanyone will really want to stay with me forever or anything. Not very complex.
Fallenraven1107's Story
Not sure really what to write here. I've just been really bothered since my girlfriend (a.k.a. my life) has seemed really upset with me as of lately. We used to be so perfect and we were always planning to get married and the everything. Now it seems like she hardly likes being near me, but she wants to visit me all the time. We always fight, she always wants to be online and I feel like we're not spending any time together. We are, but she's online the whole time so I feel completely ignored. I've tried bringing it up to her but it always starts the same argument. "I ask why don't we do something not involving her being online. She says theres nothing to do and if I say something she wants to take her laptop with her and be online while we're doing whatever. She says its because being online and talking to her friends makes her happy. She starts talking about "don't I want her to be happy? etc etc" I end up looking like a complete jerk and its back to square one" And also to top it all off a lot of her friends like her and would be more than happy if she ended up dumping me. Lately its been feeling like shes planning on dumping me or something but she just hasn't yet or something. I've really got nothing else other than her. She really is my life, and I don't know what I'd do without her. But bleh, I don't know, maybe I shouldn't be complaining about everything... =/
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