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FyreSakura's Story

I'm 16 and I have been cutting for almost 4 years or so. I'm sad to admit that I started as a way to fit in with a group of people I had been hanging out with, but instead, it has turned to an addiction even though I no longer talk to them. The truth is, I love the pain. However, I do cut for other reasons. I only cut when I am highly stressed. Examples of this are my relationships, missing school and needing to make a lot of work up, or my mom getting under my skin. I usually have a lot of ups and downs and go through depressive periods, which is when I cut. As soon as I cut though, I usually begin to feel better and for a week or two I'm cut free. I have never cut deep enough to really hurt myself, such as bleeding to death, etc. However, I do have many scars. I'm tired of lying and tired of hiding all this, so right now, I'm going through a phase of trying to get the courage to ask for help at school. I have actually recently found out that a girl I hang out with had been cutting, but I'm scared to talk to her about it...

One of my great and very helpful talents is that I have a slight photographic memory with patterns and set-ups. For example: I can look at a piece of paper with writing and pictures and stuff, remove it, and be able to picture the piece of paper in my mind with the pattern the text formed and where the pictures were. Also, depending on how important the stuff on the page is or how long I look at it, I can also recall exactly what word follows another or sentences and where they were placed on the page. I can't recall stuff with every detail, but I can remember the basic set up, and recall things like study guides for tests. It's really helpful, because all I have to do to study is write whatever it is down somewhere and my mind will memorize the pattern of how I wrote it, the strokes used, and the pattern it forms and I can then recall it later for the test. It is very helpful, and because of this, I have never studied for more than 10 minutes before and I am in High School now. Cool huh?

WHAT I LIKE: I love anime and manga, that's about all i do with my life. It is really the only thing I enjoy. my dream is to be top of the class (I'm 3rd right now) and this will be hard because I have a really tough competitor. I also want to get all 100's on my report card.(I was close, I had all 100's except one 99 and one 98) I like almost all music except rap. My favorite is foreign stuff though(japanese, spanish, etc.)