Bipolar Disorder - I don't have any prove that I have it but I feel I do. I would like to hear from someone who can tell me for sure.

Diet and Weight Maintenance - I've been struggling with my weight for year. Each time I think it's the worse I gain more and more weight. I don't look inormosly huge or something but for now I at most weight I've ever had and I really suffering from it now. I'm an emotional eater and I eat a lot. I have some good metabolism from my father's side but when you eat for a whole football team even this won't save you. All I need to do is eat less (that i currently doing) and do sports (I plan to go to the gym) My condition really scares me but this time I'm into this for good, because it's a competition with my mother, it was her plan, our weight is currently idetical, and that means also no junk food in the house.

Dysfunctional Family - Why my mother make me cry...? She is a very strong person and she can't hear a no and she never was satisfided with anything i'm doing. Before the age of 18 I was listening to her but then I stopped gradualy and she is always scream at me becase everything I'm doing, I'm now 20 and we almost don't talk now. I know i'm not the best daughter and I know she work hard but this is not an exuse to be like that. She almost never talked to me about things I care for, and if she did then is a sarcastic, pinching manner, she always told me that I have no brain and need to grow up about stuff i do, like the music I like and how I see the world and she don't understand that i'm weaker person than her. She mean good sometimes but it's really offencive. When I was at school and got a good grade she always said "you could do better" and never praised me, and if i do something good she say, "do it more often" or something like that. I really have a lot of problems and she just don't understand it. I tryed talking about it with her but everytime we talk she say something that make me cry and then she just call me a cry-baby or something like that. She is alwayas like this, about everything about my life, she say bad stuff about my bf, and about every other choise in my life. I'm so tired of it, why she want me to hate her, and I don't want to hate her I know that she have a hard time all the time and I want to help her, I want us to be friends but in the same time I just wish already to move out and never come back. She don't understand it when I talk to her, she think she is always right, how can I survive in my own house? and why she is doing it??

Schizophrenia - I also want to know more about it. But one thing for sure it's the only madness I have that fading away and I don't want to lose it.

Shyness - You can't say much about this. I quess I afraid to look lame that's it. Stupid or lame.

Stress - I don't know if you can call it stress but it happens to me everytime when someone is not pleased with my work. In job moslty. I only start to do it worse.

Depression - There is so much about it and I want to find the right words, so I will fill this section a bit later

Physical Abuse - I always been a weak person, in elementary school I always was a cry-baby. At the age of 10 I moved country with my parents. People in the new school was unbeliavably cruel and intolerant, I was beaten every single day at school and outside of it. There was few people who decieved me, one was a guy younger than me and he pretended to be my friend and then he start to beat me too. I found then a girl that was 14 and kind a big and I was hanging out with her and sometimes with her big brother and I felt protected but once we saw that guy and she knew I afraid of him and she came to him suddenly and they talked and I was calling her to come back but she ignored me and I run away and never spoke with her again, I have no idea what happend there. And in school was a new girl that pretended to be my friend too and then when I told her how much I hate everyone in the class for abusing me and said that each one of them is a SOB she told everybody as if insulted him or her personaly and then 3 girls followed me home and told it to my parents and they punished me for it instead of just listening to what I have to say. After a year we moved and I went to another school. I was kind a an outsider there too but it was heaven comparing to the previos one, I managed to find some friends but when after 3 years I went to highschool I was alone there, a single girl in the class. I had a friend there, I knew her before, but she got kicked out of school after a year, and then a huge bully came to study in our class, he was really ugly at first I even felt pity for him, I was thinking he was suffering from this but then I saw who he really are, even the teachers was afraid of him. I wasn't beaten but everyone was emotianly abusing me, acted to me as if I have some deceases, and there was a girl from another class that abused me too, she made my life there a living nightmare, I still feel anger raising when I remember my school days, even the people that was laughed on laughed at me.