Quetzal's Profile
- Sex: Male
- Age: 17
- Location:
56501
Issues Quetzal is Interested In
- Self-Injury - I've cut for almost three years now, but I've hurt myself as long as I can remember. As of June 2009, I'm a little over a month without it, and I think that may be the longest I've ever gone since I started.
- Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) - Pretty sure this is what afflicts me, but my parents don't want me seeing a psychologist. Completely unstable moods, paranoia, self hatred and self injury, that whole scene.
- Low Self Esteem - I hate myself a lot of the time. People tell me I'm a great person, about all the things I've done and will do, but none of that matters to me. It's been instilled in me that I'm worthless.
- Emotional Abuse - I've battled with this term for a long term because I don't want to believe it, but when facts are facts, my emotions have been invalidated since I was a child.
- Panic Attacks - I have panic attacks sometimes. Not as often as I used to, which was at the very least daily. I'm getting better with it I guess.
Quetzal's Story
Not a whole lot to say. I'm a musician, and a music obsessive, who can tell you anything you want to know about every band in his iTunes library. I feel a deep connection to my Latin heritage. I live in a medium income household consisting of emotional abuse and neglect. As a result, I keep my friends very close. I guess if you really wanna know about me, hit me up and we can talk, you know?
Quetzal's Blogs
Quetzal has 5 blogs. [view all]
- Anyone else - Mon, June 01, 2009 - [view]
find it disgusting that pornography, gambling, and bdsm sites target this place for spam? Considering there are more than likely people with issues in those areas here, you'd just be making their lives hell. Hope they all die in seperate fires, really.It's been a while, huh? I've been getting better with most of my problems. Building a support system, being more open about all ... - Suicide Is Painless - Sun, January 11, 2009 - [view]
I wish I could say it hasn't been in my mind lately, but that would be a lie. I haven't yet, and I haven't gotten so low as to give it a try; I guess those are positives. The problem is that with the last two weeks straight of holiday break and the Minnesota cold keeping me indoors, I've had to be around my family. I've never felt particularly loved or cared for in their eye... - Ugh - Wed, December 17, 2008 - [view]
I'm in bad shape. I'll put it how I told my sister Joi: I lost control of my truck, and I broke a stop sign. No one was hurt, the police were cool about it, my parents seem alright with it, but I'm just a mess about it for some reason. I held myself together to talk to the cop, and to talk to my parents, but then I just lost it and had a total breakdown, and I haven't had a pani... - Richey... - Sat, December 06, 2008 - [view]
Today I learned, a few weeks after it happened as I live in the US where we don't hear about these sorts of things, that courts have ordered the proclamation of Richey James Edwards to be dead. I don't quite know how to handle this; he's been such an influence on my life and I guess I'm in denial that he could be dead after all this time of hoping that he's still alive, just missing somewhere. ... - An Introduction and where I am in life - Fri, December 05, 2008 - [view]
I believe it's time to write a blog that is so long anyone who might try and read it will just say "screwit".My name is Tré, and I'm a silly teenager. I like indie/alt rock, existing with my inner circle of friends, and trying to be like my favorite musicians. I hug everyone I can, and would consider myself a failure if I didn't leave this world a significantly bett...