Roderig's Profile
- Sex: Male
- Age: 20
- Location:
37343
Issues Roderig is Interested In
- Depression - In my first year of college, I went to a depression screening after nearly attempting suicide and was diagnosed. I was sent to a psychiatrist for the rest of the semester but I didn't find him all that helpful.
- Suicide - I've come close to attempting suicide twice. Other than that I sometimes get urges out of the blue to just throw everything away by spontaneously jumping in front of a truck while walking or deliberately crashing my car.
- Shyness - I've never been able to initiate conversation with another person, I always wait for someone to talk to me first. Even then, I try to keep my distance as much as possible.
- Low Self Esteem - I hate myself. Everything I am I wish I wasn't. I sometimes wish I was just a normal person like the people talking and laughing with their friends I see everyday. Other times I wish I never existed.
Roderig's Story
I've never been good with other people. In my life I think I've only ever had two friends. I've never gone out of my way to avoid contact, but I don't start conversations with anyone either. I tend to isolate myself, even when I attend classes, limiting my contact with others as much as possible. While generally I like being alone, there are times when I wish someone were just there with me. Whenever I do talk to people, I feign interest or hide behind sarcasm and various forms of humor. The reasons behind this are because I fear close contact and hate them because they don't. I've become judgmental, looking for reasons not to engage them to begin with. The sad thing is, I can't even approach people online. To me, the anonymity of the internet is no shield. I join these kinds of sites just for some hope that someone will eventually talk to me.
Roderig's Blogs
Why don't you encourage Roderig to write a blog?