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- Sex: Female
- Age: 28
- Location:
45249
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- Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) - I've recently 'officially' been diagnosed with DID, I have 6 distinct personalities (including myself). 5 Girls & 1 Boy: Sara: Sex addicted, Bi sexual, Obsessive, Wiccan / Ari: Down to earth, Straight, Sexual, Wiccan, OCD, Slightly psychic / Tweek: Obsessive, Bi sexual, Hyper active, Non-religous /David: Musician, Artistic, Down to earth, Straight but isn't bothered by wearing girl things... much. / Virginia: No sex, No expression, No talking, Agora Phobic. / Alex: Lesbian, NOT A BOY, Generally just likes to hang out & will do whatever, Non religous
- Amnesia - I have memory problems, caused by a blow to the head. It is hard to remember things from day to day. I try to remember to leave my self notes, such as "you have already had breakfast" "remember to pay the cable bill" But then I don't know when the notes were taken so I don't eat & I pay the bill a few times over.
- Emotional Abuse - I have extreemly low self esteem, I have problems letting people get close to me. I have allot of secrets, even from people I have known for years that think they know everything about me.
- Depression - It's hard to get up in the morning, I just want to sleep my life away
- Infidelity - It is difficult to have any kind of healthy relationship. I have a girlfriend that loves me but I don't think I love her back. However, we do make excellent friends. (The first girl I've ever had a relationship with) There is a guy that I have been fooling around with (anything sexual accept vaginal or anal penetration with is penis), I love him but he says he does not love me back. Yet I can't break up with my girlfriend (I've tried) & I don't want to stop seeing him, he makes me feel everything she can't.
- Low Self Esteem - I don't feel worthy of a healthy relationship
- Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) - I take on allot of complex, tedious projects & I have allot of fun doing them. But I get so caught up in doing them that I forget to do other things like eat, sleep, etc..
- Phobia - I am afraid of Horses. Fake ones are ok up to a certin hight, but once they get up to anywhere around my knee or mid shin in height I want to run away & cry like a little girl.
- Physical Abuse - I was abused by my mother & have been in a few abusive relationships. I am afraid that something that I might do will cause someone to hit me or worse.
- Rape - I was raped multiple times at a very young age, & again by someone else at 17. I have blocked out most of the details, but what I do remember makes it hard for me to function in my daily life.
- Suicide - The earliest I remember attempting to commit suicide is about 6 years old, I took a bunch of pills from my a friends medicine cabnet & all that happened was taking a small nap. At 8 I cut my wrists while I was taking a bath, but my wrists are very sensitive so it hurt allot & I didn't cut deep enough. At 11 I tried to drown my self, cut myself (not on my wrists), fall from high places (but I'm kind of afraid of hights), & more pills. Then I tried it all over & over again until I turned 20. I've been in the hospital a few times where I was expected to die for nonsuicidal reasons & I'm still not dead. I have no idea how I've survived. I still think about it but I think I'm less likely to try.
- Sexual Abuse - I've been sexually abused from age 2 to age 19.
- Sex Addiction - I get horny easily, & sometimes for reasons I don't understand. I have only had 10 sexual partners counting only non-abusive & partners where penetration occurs. All together I have had around 20
- Sensory Integration Disorder - I am very sensitive to light, it hurts my eyes & I have to wear sunglasses most of the time, even in the mall. My hearing is sensitive to certin pitch & I cannot listen to some music or most power tools. My sense of taste is almost as sensitive.
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- I blacked out again... - Tue, June 30, 2009 - [view]
I blacked out again, woke up almost a weeks later. I missed my nieces birthday party, but I do have a cute little card tacked on my wall she mailed me thanking me for coming to her party. I hate that I can't just have a life of my own. Tweek does not understand the concept of bills very much so I have a late charge on my electric bill & for some reason my fridge is stock piled with oran... - Update on last blog... along time coming - Fri, March 13, 2009 - [view]
My ex tried to kill himself & now he's in a coma. Something about electrical appliances in a bathtub, I haven't been able to see him. I don't think I'll ever know why he did it, there not expecting him to wake up. I don't know what I'll do with out him - 16 hours - Tue, January 15, 2008 - [view]
I had a fight with my ex again... I don't know why I call him my ex, we never broke up really. There is this girl that he likes, he tells me all the things he does with her every detail of how she kisses & how much he wants her & I hate him for it more than I can express. But at the same time I love him to much to give him up all together. So for the first time in over a year I slep...