Sakura's Profile

- Sex: Female
- Age: 17
- Location:
10100
Issues Sakura is Interested In
- Social Anxiety Disorder - I tend to be avoidant when it comes to meeting new people or going to social events. Even small things like paying at the cash desk causes me stress. I am working really hard on it, though and I do believe that things get more easily for me little by little.
- Physical Abuse - My father beat me when I was around 12. Until today, I have only talked about this with one person and I'm really ashamed of it for a reason I don't understand.
- Homosexuality - I'm not exactly sure about my sexuality and I've never had any kind of experience with men, but I'm pretty sure I like women (especially since the only relationship I've ever been in was with a girl). Apart from my ex, the only one who knows about it is my sister; I'm really afraid of coming out and am very paranoid about others finding out about my sexuality.
- Hyperhidrosis - This has started about 3 years ago and it puts a lot of stress on me. At the moment, I'm using an AlCl solution which has worked really well in the beginning and still does (not as well anymore, though).
- Dysfunctional Family - While we do pretend to be an actual family, we're nothing like that at all. My parents have lost all their respect towards each other and argue most of the time, my mom is bitter and frustrated, being disappointed with her life (she says this 'family' has ruined it for her), taking out her anger on me by hurting me emotionally (saying things like 'I wish I would have aborted you', blaming me for everything), my father is just a huge asshole who has just used my mother for the whole time and doesn't have much idea of what's going on with our lives anyway and my sister likes to pretend everything's fine and cries whenever it's obvious that it's not.
- Emotional Abuse - My mother likes to make it clear to me (in various ways) that I am of no worth at all; either it's a bad thing that I was born in the first place, or I am the reason why her life was ruined, or I'm somebody that has no real friends because all my friends secretly use me/dislike me since I'm somebody who is not able to be loved/love anyway, or I'm just a fucked-up psycho.
- Break Up and Divorce - To sum it up - my ex is the most selfish person I know. She has used me for her own benefit (of 'not having to be alone', I guess), knowing I was in love with her, knowing we were best friend for years. After we broke up (and I was stupid enough to stick to her as a friend) she would talk about her new 'victim' (she seriously said it like that) and things in general that would obviously hurt me. In the end, I decided to end our friendship and fully ignore her from then on and that's how it is until today. This was and is not easy for me. I've been compeltely dependent on her as a friend, and even more as a girlfriend. I still cry for her sometimes, even though I have no feelings of love anymore. After all, she has been the most important person in my life for about 4 years.
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