Scrapped's Profile
- Sex: Male
- Age: 18
- Location:
02163
Issues Scrapped is Interested In
- Pessimism - I sometimes think everything will go bad for me because I'm unwanted. Nothing goes right for me and if it does then something bad will happen to me. A friend told me these bad things always happen to me, and whenever I try to think optimistic something bad things happens to me and I start to become pessimistic again. It's like something is keeping me to think optimistic.
- Suicide - This is because of my issues I have. I've always though if I do die then everything will be better for all around me. I always think of ways to kill myself and how good it will be for other's around me, before when I was in year 8 at school people told me how good it will be if I die.
- Stress - High School, I have my Higher School Certificate this year and I don't know how to cope with all the studying and pressure. I've lost weight from studying, I'm already underweight as it is.
- Stuttering - My English is not good and sometimes I mispronounce a word or pause. When this happens people laugh at me and call me names.
- Insomnia - I can barely sleep at times because of my issues and school.
- Shyness - I am afraid of people when I first meet them because I always think that they judge me badly.
- Low Self Esteem - This started when I first started school people picked on me and called me names therefore I always look down. This got worse at High school when people made discriminative comments about me. I never look at myself as everyone does when they look at them I always put myself down and lower than others.
- Dysfunctional Family - My family is far apart however we live under the same roof, there's always arguments and sometimes fights. I feel like a was a mistake and this family was born because I forced them to as I was born.
- Depression - I'm always depressed I have hardly any friends or probably none because they all use me. I feel lonely and isolated even at school, no one seems to care or understands me. I feel like I'm a mistake.
Scrapped's Story
I live in Australia. When I was small as far I can remember my parents always have fights with me or themselves. I remember my father tying me with a rope and my mother chasing me with a knife. Life was hard for me when I was in primary school I was a shy person and always picked on, even currently in High School. However as I think back when I was in primary school it was better than it was in High School. I at least had more friends than now and was a lot happier.
The amount of friends I currently have can be counted in one hand, when I look at others they seem so happy, as if there life is not difficult they float by each day. Each day I wake up it's hell, I'm alone, cold and no one seems to care or understands me.Each day is so tiring I feel like I want to die, whenever I wake up I say when is this going to end.
At School a teacher tells me to smile, I always wonder why? I tried to but it's too hard, what is there to smile at I always think, smiling is only for people who are happy and I'm certainly not one of them. There is a person who seems to be my friend but whenever I ask for his help he always looks around first to see if the people who bully me are around. A lot of people use me then they abuse me by making fun of my background or religion.
At night in bed I sometimes break down, I cry, pray and hope that this will be over because it's not only hurting me physically but emotionally.
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