Somniphobia's Profile
- Sex: Female
- Age: 18
- Location:
37849
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Somniphobia's Story
I don't have a very special story. I was born, and I'm still growing up. I've grown fat, too. I've never been in a real relationship. I've never stopped trying to find myself. I'm a senior in High school. I live in Tennessee. I work at a medical practice as a nurse's assistant and file clerk ( I'm basically the office slave. ) I think where I live is beautiful, but the majority of the people here are narrow minded and hurtful. I wish to do alot of traveling in my lifetime. I idolize my father, he's a good man. I've not very close to him, but we have a good relationship. He remembers things that I like, and supports me in my hobbies. My Mom and I, on the other hand, haven't been close since I became a teenager. My mother and father don't get along very well. I've battled depression for almost five years now, but I've never talked to my family about it.
My Interests: I love photography and art. Music is very special to me, I like a wide range of music. Most of it sincerely off the radar.(http://www.last.fm/user/Ewookie/). I love Christmas lights, and I put some up around my room. They comfort me. I read alot, it began as an escape, but it's grown into a essential part of my life that I value higher than anything. I like fantasy and science fiction, with the occasional historical romance here and there. Speaking of fantasy and sci-fi...I'm a total nerd. I love Star Wars, Battlestar Galactica, and everything made by Joss Whedon. Although I think The Office is my favorite television show. I like classic movies and off beat quirky ones, like Wes Anderson films. TCM is my favorite TV network. Gingerbread is my favorite smell. :)
Somniphobia's Blogs
Somniphobia has 7 blogs. [view all]
- My Mother is Having an Affair - Fri, February 29, 2008 - [view]
I could honestly kill her tonight. I heard her taking on the phone with someone, as she always does when dad isn't home. I was in the living room watching tv, and she was in her bedroom. I got up, went to the kitchen to make popcorn, and when I came back their topic of discussion had changed. She was making loud sexual sounds and talking to them at the same time. I couldn't believe what I was ... - My Medical Assessment - Wed, February 27, 2008 - [view]
I've seen a counciler and a therapist since my last doctor's visit two weeks ago. The councilor did exactly as I expected and gave me a prolonged pep-talk. She gave me a list of techniques to use when I started to feel bad. They were all obvious, and I felt like I was being treated like a self-pitying child. It consisted things like 'Thought Stopping', 'Po... - the Most Humiliating Day of My Life - Thu, February 14, 2008 - [view]
The appointment was horrible. I hated every second of it.I've never been so humiliated in my life. On top of being subjected to invasive questions, telling her how I feel and crying, she had me do a physical. The whole time we talked about my emotional health I was stark naked covered up with only a ridiculous paper vest / sheet. After we addressed the main reason I was there ( and incidentally... - Not Waving But Drowning - Sun, February 10, 2008 - [view]
I have a doctors appointment this Thursday. I'm terrified. I can't think about it without feeling nauseated. I don't want to feel like I'm at the psychiatrist. I've tried practicing what Im going to say, but I get so embarassed I usually end up in tears. I'm afraid that they are going to give me a pat on the back / a pep-talk and tell me that I'm just sensitive. I want to tell them my troubles ... - Rocky Road - Wed, January 23, 2008 - [view]
I finally told my dad how I really feel. It was the hardest thing I've ever done in my entire life. He completely understood, he says that when he was my age he felt severely depressed and suicidal, and he thinks it's diffinately genetic. He blames my condition on his genetics and lack of communication with me. The next couple of days after we talked were amazing, I fe...