animediehard4's Profile
- Sex: Female
- Age: 15
- Location:
94019
Issues animediehard4 is Interested In
- Asthma - p.e. its hard to run and when i get to upset i get attacks.
- Dyslexia - i have leardnd to get over this slightly so its not as bad now but when i read out loud i read really slow. so i get made fun of.
- Tourette Syndrome - i twich, can never hold still, and make strange souds at random.
- Suicide - i want to die not so much kill myself anymore but...yeah...
- Shyness - when im not online and im face to face with people im deathly shy!
- Dysfunctional Family - its my step dads hole side of the family its huge and all of them a corupt except for around 2 of them...my step brother is an idiot he droped out of high school and went to continuation high school then got expelled for selling ecstsy...now hes in the same grade as me and 2 years older than me...
- Depression - yeah...i get overly sad when the tinyest things happen and sometimes for no reason at all...i just start to think of all the things in my life that suck and wham i feel horrible and cant sleep...
animediehard4's Story
i... i really feel sorry for myself.
and i hate it because i feel so selfish
espesially when i try and tell people
about my problems. so i keep it to
myself which is even more painful for
me.and im what some people like to call
a scrifice for my friends i live only
to make them happy...and the more
friends i have the more i have to live
for... and one way i
know they wont get upset or mad at me
is for me to be my "happy regular
self". and my secret fear is to die
unloved... but that fear is slowly
fading away and being replaced with the
happy thought of suicide.i told some of
my close friends a few weeks ago that i
did not fear death and they got upset
with me because it was out of
the "ordianry" for me. so now i dont
even want to try anymore but if i can
help anyone with there problems ( so
long as its not about love) i'd be glad
to. and if anyone wants to help me back
i thank them.
~thank you & lots of love jasmyn!
animediehard4's Blogs
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- doing better - Fri, July 18, 2008 - [view]
i've been doing better lately...me and one of my best friends got into a fight and i almost lost her but now we're working things out it makes me happy that she isnt mad at me anymore...^^ - ... - Sun, June 15, 2008 - [view]
okay so in this little not so little explosion of sadness there are some things you might wanna knowmoms name:patty(43 i think)stepdads name:bob45 or somethin)stepbrothers name:bobby(16)halfbrothers name:trevor(1 year) im so sorry i havent been on here in forever my family was having real bad problems that i had to work out and i had finals to study for... my older (step)brother(he&#... - wow... - Sat, February 02, 2008 - [view]
i've been in a good mood lately...i've been sleeping through the nigh for once and not having nightmares eveynight! ........i'm even doing better in p.e. ....saddly i think this is only temporary...because this must be a sign something really bad's gonna happen... i just hope it doesn't include somthing happening to my friends, father or step mothers side of the family... - hm.... - Mon, December 24, 2007 - [view]
feeling...okay...still haven't cryed im....happy today though...i don't think i've told anybody here this yet but i haven't truely cryed sence i was 4...so on my last b-bay it was the 10th anevery of me not crying. oh... well yeah im in a great mood today! ///^//^/// - .... - Sat, December 22, 2007 - [view]
hi...i'm feeling better than i i was when i wrote my last blog thanksto a couple of people who sent me encouagments.i'm not better....but better then i was.^_^,....man im pathetic............