hatelife's Profile
- Sex: Female
- Age: 15
- Location:
east point, GA 30344
Issues hatelife is Interested In
- Back Pain - i get back pains everyday and i am just a teenager.i told my mom to take me to a crpractor(sp?) but she didn't listen and it still hurts i think it's getting worser everyday.
- Suicide - i think of killing myself everyday. but i keep hopeing that each day will get better. but it never does. i'm so close to killing myself everyday. i have planed to kill myself at age 20. but will i last to that age? i don't know?
- Shyness - i hate my shyness because it stops me from talking to people and it makes me seem weird to everybody because they can never hear me or want to talk to me.
- Homosexuality - i dont know if i like girls or boys. i keep looking at girls more than i do at boys. i get turned on by girls and not guys. i have told my mom i liked girls once and she said to stop playing around. but i wasn't playing.
- Depression - depression affects me alot because i feel that i have nothing to live for.
- Self-Injury - i always injure myself hitting my head aganist the wall to hitting myself to finally cutting. my cousin said when i was little i always used to hit my head aganist the wall. so i guess that i have always injured myself.
- Rape - i almost got rape by my this boy once. and he was my cousin. he used to kiss me and touch me places and say that he loved me and that i was beautiful,but i never told my parents until one day. and they got rid of him. i still see him around town. iam scared to this day that he will kill me or really rape this time. he use to tounch me when nobody was looking and when he and myself where alone in my house. i was 12 or 13 when this happened. nobody in my family seem to know. i used to run away from him everytime i saw him. iam still scared he will get me because i told my parents. he was 18-20 at the time.
- Headaches/Migraines - i get these alot everywhere i go i get one. i don't tell anybody that i have one,because i think it will pass,but it doesn't. i am getting one right now as i right this.
- Insomnia - i can't never get to sleep while everybody in my house can. i stay up late everyday.
hatelife's Story
i like anime and listening to music,but that's mostly what i live for and when that's over i think i may just kill myself.
hatelife's Blogs
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- milk - Sun, March 07, 2010 - [view]
today i bought a lactose milk and drank a cup full and my stomach didn't start to hurt at all. yay! now i can eat cereal again. - told to die - Sun, March 07, 2010 - [view]
today my family said they wouldn't care if i died. i got really depressed after they said that. i was going to kill myself today, but i didn't. this isn't the first time they told me. - killing myself everyday - Sat, March 06, 2010 - [view]
i think about killing myself every single day. there has never been a day when i didn't want to die. i first thought of killing myself at 9 years old, but i didn't. at 12 i tried to kill myself with a hammer but dad found out and hit me alot of times with a wire and it hurted alot. now at 15 almost 16 since my birthday is this month i haven't stopped thinking of killing myself. i al... - the list - Thu, March 04, 2010 - [view]
today at school i made a list of what i can't eat and symptons that come with the food after being eaten. when i got home i showed my mom the list and she laughed. what was so funny? i told my mom that the list wasn't funny and it was a list of food i can't eat unless i want to feel sick. but she kept on laughing. i was so angry at her when she wouldn't stop laughing so i threw ... - lactose and tolerent part 2 - Wed, March 03, 2010 - [view]
i feel even worse now. i can feel the milk in my stomach and it is making me feel sick. how long is this going to last?