iicaptain's Profile
- Sex: Female
- Age: 18
- Location:
02445
Issues iicaptain is Interested In
- Panic Attacks - Panic attacks consume me at least once a day, if not more. I get panicky over almost anything - but mainly because of my phobia's, and in particular, my social phobia. Going outside is a real struggle.
- Self-Injury - I scratch my hands - they're scarred pretty badly. I was afraid to get my Learner's licence because I thought that I would crash the car in an attempt to kill myself. A lot of suicidal thoughts.
- Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) - I have to have order. Everything has to be in it's right place or it results in a panic attack. Always take a certain seat on the bus, always have to know what's going on... I don't understand what happens most of the time, but all I know is that it has to happen.
- Bipolar Disorder - My mood swings so dramatically sometimes I could be totally, insanely happy one second and then I stop, and start crying and trying to scratch off the dirt on my hands...
- Homosexuality - Homosexuality is really not an issue. I had a boyfriend in year eight, and that ended rather well although. Me and him are still mates. Then I had a girlfriend for almost a year and that ended badly... and now I have another boyfriend. Who's next? Who knows...
- Depression - I'm sad 80% of the time. Being depressed sucks. It's what causes most of my other problems... except for the lactose intolerance xD. I like to hide behind this facade, which is probably a bad thing, but if it keep people from asking if i'm alright 50zillion times a day, then it makes all the difference.
- Asthma - I can't exercise for very long. This provides bad self images... and people always ask me why i'm not active. I have to take my inhaler into exams cause i usually have a panic attack and have to take it, which attracts a lot of attention. I'm the only real asthmatic in my year.
- Lactose Intolerance - Can't have any dairy products. I wouldn't really call it an issue, it's more just a hindrance. Even though it gives me a horrible stomach ache, I still eat ice-cream.
iicaptain's Story
Well, where to start? I live in Australia, NSW, right along the coast, it's beautiful here. I have a dog, two guinea-pigs, five chickens and four ducks, who just had 8 ducklings. I live with my mum, dad and sister. I know they try their best to support me but sometimes it gets annoying.
I've had severe anxiety problems from a very young age, refusing to participate in group activities even in preschool. When i'm stressed, I break down and cry really easily, and I have a fair amount of back problems (probably resulting from being busty >_<)
Fortunately I have lots of supportive mates who help me out when i'm down. I love them all. KEEP ROCKING!!
And remember, no matter how bad it gets, there is always somebody who wants to make it better.
iicaptain's Blogs
iicaptain has 2 blogs. [view all]
- Terrified of Change. - Mon, February 11, 2008 - [view]
I had to see a new counsellor last week. She told me that I had to change. But how am I supposed to change when this is all that I've ever known? The anxiety has been going on for so long I don't know HOW to change, or even WHAT to change! I don't even know if I want to change. Something has to be different because once I get off the medication (200mg Luvox p/day) what... - Summer... - Mon, December 17, 2007 - [view]
Is it just me, or does hot weather give other people headaches as well? Christmas in Australia. Where do I start? Boiling hot, ALL DAY LONG. Temperatures that usually hit over 40 celcius. You can't go outside because you're leaving the sanctity of the only air conditioned room in the house. Fun. Even if you want to go swimming, you can't, because the ...