jenash42's Profile
- Sex: Female
- Age: 45
- Location:
28712
Issues jenash42 is Interested In
- Cocaine Addiction - I am currently involved in an outpatient rehab group, which was court ordered, but I have found it to be very beneficial.
- Codependence Addiction - I have attended CODA groups in the past, which helped immensely to define my problem with Codependency. I also found Melody Beatie's books on the subject to be extremely helpful, the first of which was entitled, "Codependent No More". I continue to work on my own healing and try to make me and my recovery the #1 priority.
- Marijuana Addiction - This is my drug of choice. Again, I am in outpatient rehab to help me deal with this issue. I am clean and sober to date, but know that the pot issue may surface again, once my probation is over. For now, I don't use, as the consequences (legal) are not worth it.
- Smoking - I am a smoker. I quit once for two months, but haven't had the courage to try again. I'm concentrating on ceasing the illegal drugs first, and hope to one day focus again on quitting this.
- Asthma - I use a Combivent inhaler and Asthmanex. I wheeze alot. Smoking doesn't help, I know, but haven't been able to quit yet for good.
- Environmental Allergy - Allergies get worse in the spring, primarily. I take Allegra 180 and it works well!
- Agoraphobia - I've only recently been diagnosed with this disorder, but the symptoms are as follows: fear and extreme anxiety upon having to leave the house. Heart palpitations, sweating, shaking, and difficulty getting ready to leave, all make getting out of the house very hard to do. I continue to press forward, and do as best I can, self-talking myself as I prepare to leave the house. I don't put undo pressure on myself by insisting that I have all my makeup on and things like that. Often, I go as I am...
- Anger Management Problem - Therapists tell me I have and am very angry. I have reason to be, believe me! Still, it is up to me to work on this and I am...
- Depression - I have been depressed my entire life. If I go off meds, I end up on the psych ward...So, I try to stay on them and do the work necessary in my life to reduce the environmental causes of my depression. Divorce helped alot!
- General Anxiety Disorder (GAD) - I stay anxious. Working on breathing, and positive self-talk. Meds help alot too.
- Panic Attacks - Occassionally, GAD turns to this, but I try to push through whatever it is that causes this onto the other side. The hardest part is ignoring the feeling I'm going to die...
- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) - I deal with this disorder on an ongoing basis, as it arises. I am especially vulnerable to violence happening around me, and usually have to leave the scene if it occurs.
- Arthritis - Most of the arthritis pain is in my thumbs, elbows, and knees. NSAIDS are my friend...
- Back Pain - My back hurts most every day, so I try to keep enough Ibuprophen in me, so it isn't so bad. 800mgs every 5 hours works well. They won't prescribe much more than that or Tramadol, which also works well. Had herniated disc surgery about 20 years ago which helped a lot!
- Chronic Pain - I've been diagnosed with fibromyalgia for about 3 years now, and chronic pain has been my friend for that and much longer... I used to have a pain management doctor, but that was when I had insurance. Now that I don't have the money, I go to a free clinic.
- Headaches/Migraines - Fortunately, I don't get too many of these, but when I do, they're a doosy...
- Bereavement / Grief - I lost my best friend last Dec. She was 27 y/o and we loved each other so much. I think about her every day, and miss the hell outta her! Dad died Feb. 14th of this year, but he and I didn't get along at all, so I have a lot deeper feelings of loss for Stephanie than I do for my own father.
- Break Up and Divorce - Was divorced Sept. 13th of 2006, thank God! I'm feeling better and better every year! Only wish I hadn't left my kids behind, but was doing so for good reasons...
- Child Abuse - Because of the effects of abuse suffered as a child, I have several mental health diagnosis' including Chronic Depression with psychotic features, PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, and Agoraphobia... I have taken meds since the age of 14 and if I go off of them for any length of time, I find myself in the hospital shortly thereafter.
- Emotional Abuse - I have been in therapy now 31 years to help me heal from the emotional scars. I think some of it has helped, but still have some anger issues I deal with.
- Physical Abuse - See above.
- Sexual Abuse - I have alot to say on this issue, so if you want to talk about it, let me know.
- Rape - I have let this go, and forgiven my rapist. It took a lot of years to do but I'm a survivor and a victor. He will have to answer to someone greater than me one day. I passed up the opportunity to shoot the guy with the same gun he held on me, and I know today, I made the right decision.
- Sleep Apnea - I need to get a new mask for my CPAP machine. It's old and I can't sleep well with that thing hanging on my face. I'm hoping now that I have Medicaid, I can get this remedied soon.
- Parenting - Adolescents - There is a long story to go with this, but suffice to say that none of my kids live with me anymore. I am learning to let go in so many ways. Some day I hope they will understand all that I hope for them.
- Financial Problem - The good news is that I have finally been accepted for the SSI. I have waited 4 years total, but they are only going to pay me for one years back pay. I'm also expecting some money in a settlement, from a car wreck I had back in Dec. So I am hopeful that my financial situation will be forever improved. Finally!
jenash42's Story
Well, I've just begun this page in hopes to network with others struggling with the same issues I have and their supporters. I deal with a plethora of issues in my life, including but not limited to: Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain, Migraines, Cervical Cancer Survivor, DES adult baby, Osteoarthritis, Sleep Apnea, Allergies, Asthma, Chronic Bronchitis, Chronic Depression, PTSD, Agoraphobia, General Anxiety Disorder, Dissociative Disorder, Addictions, and so on. Please feel free to drop me a line of any kind, as I welcome your input.
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