littleshy's Profile
- Sex: Female
- Age: 18
- Location:
Canada, 88888
Issues littleshy is Interested In
- Asperger Syndrome - I was diagnosed twice, most recently at fifteen, but initially when I was thirteen. This is something that greatly affects my every day life and I've yet to know how to, or been able to, deal with it fully.
- Scoliosis - Since I was young, I've been ailed with what is called Scheuermann's Kyphosis, which is a curvature of the upper spine. I am affected by this as it develops into chronic back pain and soreness all around my upper back, and shoulders. For the visual reason.. Physically, it has truly lowered my self esteem quite a bit. I'm scheduled for an appointment within a few months to discuss possible spinal surgery.
- Agoraphobia - I'm unfortunately most always home bound and uncomfortable to leave my "safe zone". It is not so much the people that make me so, but the extreme anxiety and overstimulation I receive because of my SID. I grew up in small towns and the change to the loud, polluted and bustling city that I live in now has hindered me in wanting to be outside all the time, like I used to.
- Low Blood Pressure - Low blood pressure runs in my family. My mum has low blood pressure. It just makes me feel very light headed when I get up too quickly, or if I am active for too long.
- Shyness - I lack much social contact, so what happens is, if I over think things too throughly before speaking, or if I am spoken to directly (especially by males) I could be comparable to a tomato.
- Sensory Integration Disorder - I react to strong scents, bright lights, and most prominently loud noises, involuntarily. Bright lights give me migraines- I recall that after school, I would often come home each day with a headache from the fluorescent lighting. Strong scents, often times, will send me into a "fight or flight" mode, and I can concentrate on nothing but the stimuli itself. I'll sometimes try to flee from whatever causes me the inner turmoil, which, at times, can be dangerous, since at the time I am not paying attention to my surroundings. When it comes to high pitched, or loud noises-- it becomes very painful to me so that I may cry unwillingly from the pain in my ears.
- Low Self Esteem - I have never liked myself. I do not know if this is because I've never really had friends, which always made me believe that there must be something wrong with me, or what it is, exactly. I dislike seeing myself in the mirror, or trying on new clothes. I do not have a very good opinion of myself and I have a problem with giving up easily, due to lack of confidence in my abilities and myself. I'm trying my best to raise my self esteem.
- Suicide -
littleshy's Story
Um.. hello!
I'm a 17 year old female. I reside in Canada and I'm of Norwegian (father's side) and Irish (mother's) blood.
I have a lot of goals and dreams.
I'm said to have a gentle personality; I'm not malevolent in the least, and I'm loving. I have some odd tendencies and quirks, but nobody is perfect.
I enjoy quite a few things. I read a lot. I like to watch films, learn about different cultures/languages, gardening, birds, and I enjoy reading anime/manga -- I like the stories. I'm a very big music fan! Opera and classical. I have a good ear, and I play the harp.
I've stopped going to school, even though I loved it, due to the acute social stress. I was unable to deal with the people around me once I entered high school and I started failing my classes because I couldn't focus on anything but. I know now that it was cowardly to quit and am now attempting to fix my mistake. I am trying to graduate by other means at the moment, but if it does not work out, I will enroll in an International Baccalaureate course. I am tired of not accomplishing anything. I've had enough of standing still.
Once I graduate, I'm hoping to study alternative medicine at www.snh.cc/
I try to stay positive. I do not like to keep thinking of the things I cannot change, because it sure enough will really depress me. I feel it is important to talk about things sometimes, though. The trouble is usually "who cares enough to listen".
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