person718's Profile

- Sex: Male
- Age: 26
- Location:
97060
Issues person718 is Interested In
- Suicide - When I first started getting thoughts of suicide they were soothing, they would make me feel better whenever I couldnt handle my problems, it was just a fantasy. now its a fact I fantisize about it multiple times a day. I know that I will eventually step in front of the train I take every morning if I can't find a way aroud this problem. The truth is I do not want to die, so I have decide to give myself one last chance to be happy so hear I am.
- Tinnitus - I cannot relax period there has to be some sort of sound otherwise the roaring drives me insane.
- Depression - I think Its becouse I detest my self so much. I keep picking on me, everytime I look in the mirror I say I hate you Its not like I mean to say it it is completly automatic. If I make the tiniest error or am not fast enough at doing somthing I call myself an idiot or a retard, If I do somthing well I will find a fault in it and ignore everything else about it.
person718's Story
I have no idea what kind of site this is. I was looking for a way to deal with my ever increasing thoughts of suicide, and I was sent here.
person718's Blogs
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- Life - Sat, October 20, 2007 - [view]
I see people sitting around talking, laughing enjoying the coversation they seem so sure of themselves. They make it look so easy I know what they are doing is what makes life worth it, but I cant bring myself to do it when I do get the stones up to try I screw it up I just don't get it.
