princessme2007's Profile
- Sex: Female
- Age: 27
- Location:
Salt Lake City, UT 84120
Issues princessme2007 is Interested In
- Depression - i'm always depressed and yet i can't explain why, everyone wants an explaination but i can never give one. it makes me more depressed when peeps are demanding, i miss my rock that i'd crawl under and hide, it was taken away from me ='\
- Suicide - some in the back of all my pain suicide seems like the best answer, but when i try with all my might i start to cry. it can't be helped, sometime i just want to walk in the middle of traffic and then smoosh. just writing about this is making me cry ='\
- Anger Management Problem - i just learned recently that i have issuses working with peeps i get so emotional and pissed of at the same time. i got released from my last job for venting in the break room, all i did was scream, my sup. said it was very inappropiate for me to that, but how else am i supposed to vent it out, now i hate that place. THEY never understood my issues clearly, for that i HATE them ='\
- Bipolar Disorder - although it's not clinicaly proven i know i have it. there are peeps i really honestly want to kill in real life. they deserve it, they've hurt me way too much. ='\
- Amnesia - i have short and long term amnesia, there is no way that my little brain can comprehend everything. i'm always forgetting something, then i get yelled at for it, it's too unfair ='\
- General Anxiety Disorder (GAD) - my anxiety is through the roof and so far into space, i can never be steady ='\ it doesn't matter wut it is i cry ='(
- Jealousy - i easily get jealous, it's too common for me, it's habit that's hard for me to control ='\
- Ovarian Cysts - my last doctor visit showed i had a lot of these and let me tell ya, when one pops the pain is unbarable, i can't sleep i can't do anything, even taking pain meds those don't help either ='\
- Panic Attacks - i have way too many of these, they fall in line with my anxiety ='\
- Stress - i live with way too much stress, other peoples stress also cling to me i hate it ='\
- Self-Injury - i hurt myself too much, it's the only way for me to break down and cry, bcuz no one wants to hear my problems ='(
- Yoga - i sorta know some yoga moves, but i have an issuse with exercising in public even in front of me roomies ='\
- Sex Addiction - i'm totally addicted to sex i have to have it 24/7, it's something that makes me feel high and off the wall, most of the time my bf can't keep up with my sex desires, i need more i want women and men, i totally need bad and i can't get out of this cycle. uhhnnnnnnn >=)~
princessme2007's Story
i have had depression for about 2+ years {well that's when it turned out to be clinical depression} i go though a lot in a day, right now i'm beyond the reaches of the boundaries that have kept me safe ='( i'm constantly sad, depressed, a major 'reclouse', & i hate everyone around me it's like no one ever understands all this pain that i'm in, i cry myself to sleep every night, i draw on my self all over {very soon i'll be cutting myself and watching the blood leave my body & it will all continue}, i've been to see 2 peeps, this guy who believes i'm more than what i am now {i can see it in his eyes, he doesn't get me, i want to bash him in good} & this chick with a accent that makes it hard for me to understand her {she made do like a diary thingie for a month or two, then thought i was bi-polar, she had go to a place and take the test & that guy was there ~ that stupi prick handed me the damned test then left me, i got some where around 10 Q's in and got really fking bored with it and put in what ever, ferther more i didn't understand about 90% of the Q's ~ that guy was a damned prick}. i want to fade away, i hate the sorrow, i hate the massive pain from every minute i live all i want is for someone to hold my hand and take baby steps along with me, that's not too fking much to get {but no one will be there for me} so i just would rather stay in the darkness away from peeps {i really want to make a lot of peeps bleed to death, i can just barely hold back}, my dad's an ass, i want to bash him and watch him slowly die {fk, i know i'm bi-polar, ir runs in my blood, i have blood reletives that have already tried to commit suicide} we are not alone even though we really are='( please help me before it's too fking late. . .
princessme2007's Blogs
princessme2007 has 3 blogs. [view all]
- Cut My Life Into Pieces This Is My Last Resort - Fri, February 08, 2008 - [view]
right now i am this song and i want a copy of it. seriously though yes i want a copy of it, it will help me feel betterz. hah i even cut myself with a sharp knife and i think that it was a deep cut, lots and lots and lots and lots of blood is trickling out of me, my arm is peeing, lol, i haven't much to help my self, though parts of mt wound has started the healing phase, but it... - Home Life - Tue, February 05, 2008 - [view]
i at home with my mum and dad and bf and let me tell ya it is hell, i liive in it everyday. i don't get along with my dad he pisses me off so fricking much, urgh, he doesn't know what being nice actually means, i want to cut him up so freaking bad, rrrrrrrr, he brings out my EVIL ANGRY XTRA BAD side. there are times i get so up set that i freak out and purposely hurt myself i do that cu... - my b-day - Wed, January 30, 2008 - [view]
my b-day was yesterday and it sucked so bad i cried, my dad was rude to me, my one sis never wished me a happy b-day, i got nothing. it was too depressing, all i did was cry all over my b-day cake, i had no strength i couldn't blow out the candles ='i just want to fade away i don't like it here anymore, fade away into the darkness, forget me, just let me cry myself to death ='