theasylumdownthelane's Profile
- Sex: Female
- Age: 15
- Location:
46038
Issues theasylumdownthelane is Interested In
- Depression - It's mostly the reason for why I wanna die. It makes me feel sad and hopeless, so why continue living? I feel like everything will eventually make me sad--quite a few things I enjoy already depress me... I think too much....
- Asthma - I'm taking two meds for it (not including my fast-acting inhaler), those being Flovent and Singulair. I think the one lady said my lungs are working at 70% of what they should be/what they estimated... can't remember which... Could be worse... But my asthma makes my ribs really tight, and now I've got a "trick rib" that'll pop out....
- Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) - u~h... I personally don't think I have it, but my mom, grandma, and Braman say I do... and the description thing on here supports my belief... I win!!!! (mayhap)
- Insomnia - It takes a long time to fall asleep, I don't usually sleep a lot, and I'm always tired... But!!! I haven't fallen asleep in class... yet. I almost did last month/month before last.
- Back Pain - ..... I blame school!!! (reasoning: If I didn't go to school, then I wouldn't have known about bassoons, so I wouldn't be playing one and messing up my back!!!) It's not so bad now that I've been going to the chiropractor.
- Suicide - I'm a coward, so I can't cut my wrists or something (drugs might be ok, though), but I've kinda decided that I wanna jump off a nice bridge. It sounds fun (thought process: heights+water+possiblity of death=undeniably fun). Wellness made me laugh 'cause our book said, "If you have thoughts about hurting youself or others, you should get help immediately." XD ... and me wanting to die influences my drawings... like the one I just finished!!!!
theasylumdownthelane's Story
I feel useless 'cause I can't help anyone, even when I want to.... oh noes!!! I'm a liability!!!
theasylumdownthelane's Blogs
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- XD stupid - Tue, January 29, 2008 - [view]
I've come to the conclusion (I'm slow...) that I wouldn't be depressed if there was someone that I trusted completely, but I won't know unless I tell someone what I don't wanna tell 'til I know.... ("You write some long-ass sentences."--Mom) XD It's stupid and won't do any good.... - fun, fun, fun - Tue, January 15, 2008 - [view]
Woo~! Go sarcasm!! ... Unless ya consider goin' ta funerals fun... The funeral was yesterday, and it was my 4th, and, yet again, someone I didn't really know died, so I wasn't really upset 'bout that. I thought the whole thing was depressing 'cause I'd feel waves of misery comin' from most everyone there... Well, that, and people (relatively) close to me were cr... - abandoning - Mon, December 31, 2007 - [view]
I feel like I'm abondoning Thak (Thak is my bassoon; this'll be the 3rd year with the same 1).... I haven't really been practicing because I've cried twice afterwards somewhat recently, so... yeah... kinda wanna avoid that... I really should practice with Thak 'cause the ISSMA contest thing is comin' up and I'm gonna be in woodwind trio... I guess it&#... - bestest moring ever - Sat, December 22, 2007 - [view]
I think there was a lot of sarcasm in the title... I guess it'd be best in terms of bloody noses. I've had 3 so far, with blood on my hand and arm. I'm pretty sure this is the first time it's happened, and they were all right after each other. The 1st wasn't so bad (it stopped after a while) but the second 1 sucked. That's the 1 where I got blood on myself. The 3rd came ... - again - Fri, December 07, 2007 - [view]
Oh, yeah, just Tuesday 'r' somethin', I broke down again, but, what was cool, was that I was able to calm down by thinking of anime and manga!! Ya~y!! :D It took a lot less time to regain my composure, though that could be because the 2nd time wasn't as bad as the 1st.... If we continue with the pattern, I'm due for another crying session today, right...? Though ...