zdrasvootye's Profile
- Sex: Male
- Age: 35
- Location:
23005
Issues zdrasvootye is Interested In
- Cocaine Addiction - this "condition" leaves me useless and feeling horrible. no money, no self respect and no self control. it actually has made me smoke bread crumbs hoping it was a small piece that fell or got scooted over..
- Depression - food has no taste...clothes feel like a prison..it makes life like a piece of lettuce with no dressing.....two pieces of bread with nothing in between.
- Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) - it wastes my time and money for one thing...i go on binges which i regret later...the immediate high from a binge, whether it be shopping or sex or whatever, is followed by extreme guilt and questioning...like my mind has slpit into two teams and they are fighting each other for control. if something is out of place or different...it alters my mind somehow and i must change it back....its really fun
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- health and drugs - Tue, March 25, 2008 - [view]
if there is anyone who is in medical...who may really know....i would like staright answers...what does smoking coke do to your barin and lungs, liver, kidneys....i just cannot get staright information. is a year considered long term? what are the damages done during a year of heavily smoking coke...i will not get into the heroin...because i know. i just wonder...all of that c... - baby steps - Tue, March 25, 2008 - [view]
after many months of fighting and slipping and then get a foothold....yesterday was a nightmare...the damn broke and i couldnt face the day or the night...as i was sitting there in the evening after several weeks of a binge....i went to my first NA meeting. i just couldnt face the night or the guilt or the hopelessness alone....it was killing me...internally empty....just wanted to get hi... - an old friend - Fri, February 29, 2008 - [view]
it was a casual meeting..nothing special...hadnt seen these friends in a while....im ok, been ok for a while. you dont mind if we light up a bit? go ahead, ive beaten that...ill just chill. the vapors(smell) was like an old friend i hadn't seen in a while. the old friend says, ive missed you, im not as bad as you had thought...you let me go, you can do it again...y... - happy halloween - Thu, November 01, 2007 - [view]
sugar high. i think i get more candy as an adult than as a child...everyone brings their leftovers to work... - simplicity - Fri, October 26, 2007 - [view]
i am approaching the second month of being clean. i have more money and things are a bit more simple. once out, you can see how stressful using is. police, hiding being high, fighting a binge and missing sleep, covering lies with lies and trying to remember which story or personality you are that day. i think the lifestyle is as bad as the drug itself. re...