I blacked out again…

I blacked out again, woke up almost a weeks later. I missed my nieces birthday party, but I do have a cute little card tacked on my wall she mailed me thanking me for coming to her party. I hate that I can't just have a life of my own. Tweek does not understand the concept of bills very much so I have a late charge on my electric bill & for some reason my fridge is stock piled with orange juice, 4 cartons is a little extreme. I just hope she let somebody else drive to the grocery, the last time Tweek 'borrowed' the car she paniced when a cop tried to pull her over, David popped in an almost ran into a tree. Attempting to explain why to a cop was such a joy >_<

Testing, one, two, three

I don't even know if this will work now. But I will keep posting so maybe anyone on here will care.. This is just a test try. But if anyone has ever had issues with cutting or eating disorders, feel free to message?

Health IT program needs ID management

Privacy becomes an issue with electronic health records

The Obama administration’s drive to implement electronic health records (EHRs) should have strong identity management tools to ensure privacy and security of the records, members of a panel of providers, vendors and policy experts said today.

The coming health information technology policies and standards are to include protections for patient privacy and security and safeguards against medical identity theft. Achieving those goals could be advanced by identity management tools, such as strong authentication standards and smart cards, according to panelists at an event in Washington today organized by the Smart Card Alliance and the Secure ID Coalition. Both groups represent vendors of identity management programs.

For example, patients checking in to Mount Sinai Medical Center in New York City are assigned a smart card that contains their photograph and a digital summary of recent clinical information. By delivering the information to doctors providing care, the card helps improve care and reduce medical errors. The card also has proven to be critical in reducing fraud and identity theft, which in turn decreases errors in payments and in patient care, said Paul Contino, vice president of IT at Mount Sinai.

“If you don’t catch the errors at the registration desk, you will see dramatic effects downstream,” Contino said. “If you are going to spend money on health IT, you need the right identification standards.” Without strong ID management, care records are likely to have errors because of false identities, misspelled names, duplicative names and other problems. Even a single error, such as a wrong blood type listed on a patient’s record due to a mix-up with another person’s identity, can lead to catastrophic consequences for a patient, he said.

Congress approved spending $17 billion in incentives for doctors and hospitals that install and use health IT systems as part of the economic stimulus law. The Health and Human Services Department is drawing up standards and policies to distribute payments to providers who can show meaningful use of health IT. HHS also is setting up a framework for secure exchange of the health data and the department’s national coordinator for health IT on May 15 released a road map for creating the standards and policies under the stimulus law.

One standards will involve controls on access to patient records. The leakage of private medical information can affect a patient’s employment, housing and insurance status, and because of that extreme sensitivity, medical information requires more than a password for secure handling, said Michael Magrath, director of business development for North America for Gemalto Inc.

“Health information exchanges and regional information exchanges will be targeted by hackers,” Magrath said. “I have strong concerns about the prospect of minimum standards,” such as passwords alone. Identity authentication standards for receiving medical care and handling medical data should require a password and also use of some type of identity token or certificate issued by a third party, he said.

Ideally, patients would be in charge of — and would have complete access to — all of their health records, said William Yasnoff, managing partner of the National Health Information Infrastructure Advisors consulting firm.

“Who has your complete medical records? For most people, it’s no one,” Yasnoff said.
Medical Billing | Medical Transcription

All good

Well, I have been cut free for about a month now. Summer has arrived and now I have to be careful. I did notice, without planning it, that my bathing suit bottom covers the cuts on my thigh because there is a little skirt attached to it. which is good I guess. I don't plan to be cutting this summer, because I can't imagine anything that would send me into a depressing downward spiral, but I'll keep you guys updated. My sister has rediscovered my cutting habit from 2 Christmases ago (i don't know if I told you about that one??)  Well, she thought I had stopped just because I stopped doing it on my wrist, but then she saw my thigh before it was done being red and scabby. Well, she gets really shaken up by it, and she cries, but personally, I don't see why. It's not like she's doing it. Anyway, it does make me feel bad that I make her feel that way, but I can't really help the habit..

 

FyreSakura

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I thought I should try to use this thing a bit or something. maybe. the layout's so ugly though… maybe I should mess around with stylish and see if I can make it prettier.

actually I'm in the middle of playing Mass Effect. maybe I'll come back later and whine.

how?

my story is really sad, i get anger over it, and it makes me really sad. all the yelling the times of hell that were so bad that i can still feel it, feel it in my heart. how do i foregte about my evil and sad past?

i am really tring to foreget my past cause if i don't i rememmber and when that happens my heart starts to hurt so bad i knocks me out.

 the goods news is i am getting better at anger management, thats at lest some good news i think. i still believe in not having friends doe to my past and all. so how will i accept a girlfriend, a wife, i hate having friends, so how will i get over it? how will some one accept me as there boyfriend, or husbad. there is so much stuff that i have gotten over, it's fun  then theres the bad things in my life.

i am becoming more and more smarter at computers i am a computer programmer now. still learing. having fun at it. thats good i think.

 oh yea if i hate poeple and i mean i really hate poeple. how do i get a girlfriend and or a wife?

i need a hand to hold

I've been able to keep my depression under control for awhile. The only time it really bothers me is when I get stressed out. Like, it doesn't have to be that much stress, but right time right place I'll be depressed.

 

When this happens I start sweating at random at all times of the day. And it's a lot. Like my clothes are soaked more or less.  Also, I'm about to cry my eyes out any second. It usually lasts longer even after the stress dies down.

 

It's never been this bad before with the end of school. I'm going out of my mind and I can't focus.  I'm just so…sad. It's the only real word to describe it. Talking to the few people I do doesn't get me anywhere…I guess it's because I'm too stubborn.

 

I'm gonna break at any moment and I don't know what to do.

Anyone else

find it disgusting that pornography, gambling, and bdsm sites target this place for spam? Considering there are more than likely people with issues in those areas here, you'd just be making their lives hell. Hope they all die in seperate fires, really.

It's been a while, huh? I've been getting better with most of my problems. Building a support system, being more open about all of it to people close to me, haven't cut for five weeks. Life at home are still kinda meh but it isn't terrible at this point.

Anyway, maybe I'll check this site more often now.

Drug Test: Result Matter

Any form of investment is a baby; the investee as its parents has the obligations to safeguard his or her venture, check whether it is growing and if it’s handled by the right group or individual. This must be the reason why more and more companies are very deliberate when it comes to appointing new employees. They want to make sure that they are on the right track and that they are working with the right person. Before someone takes his or her seat in the company he or she must undergo the rigid and stiff requirements of your future employer.

                Drug testing is one of the prerequisites of some companies, to be hired; one must pass the said test, passing in the form of being negative, negative from any form and substance of the illegal drugs such as cannabinoids ( marijuana, hashish), Cocaine ( cocaine, benzolylecognine), Amphetamines ( amphetamine, methamphetamine) Opiates ( heroin, opium, codeine, morphine), Phencyclidine, Methadone, Barbiturates, Benzodiazepines, and others.

                Drug test occurs in different forms or the so called drug testing method. The most common method is the Urine drug testing and is used by the federally mandated drug testing program, yet it is also considered as the least effective for the reason that it can be cheated via simple adulteration or substitution, unless specimen collection is directly observed, it also posses the inability to detect current drug abuse. Saliva Drug Testing is the next, a non-invasive method which allows easy collection of specimen. This form will not require bathroom to administer the tests. It has the ability to detect very recent drug use. Spray (sweat) drug testing is the third, considered as a non-invasive method, like saliva drug testing, this method does not require bathroom to take the specimen. This drug test is relatively tamper proof since they are hard to manipulate. Hair drug test or testing is the last method which provides a much longer window of detection, useful for highly safety-critical positions.

Your job or should we say your career will still rely on you and you alone. No matter how you hide and cheat the result of your drug test you yourself know that you are guilty. The importance of being drug-free is not a benefit that you can give the company that you are planning to be involved with, but it is beneficial for you. 

oh boy

So I'm just a vat of uncertainty anymore.

I've had a lot of drama with the few friends I have. I'm not allowed to see one of them and the guy I like from my homeschooling program (three hours away) is going back to school next year. It's becoming more and more evident the restriction and suffocation my parents bear upon me. I keep thinking three more years is all I have left of it but I don't want to wish my time away like that.

I'm especially broken by the fact I feel like my mom doesn't pay attention to me. Every time I try to talk to her seriously about something, she changes the topic and then forgets about it. 

I don't know wheather I'm supposed to be feeling this honestly. I was raised to always listen to my parents because they were always right. And I'm mature to understand a lot of what they do and I appreciate it as well. Every day though, it gets harder for me to see the reason in some of their restrictions. Having to make sure my siblings can "play" with my friends when they come over because my mom doesn't want to let them play with the other kids in the town because she doesn't like their parents.

Maybe I'm being selfish. It comes to mind because my mom's always in pain and my dad is always working. Is it fair for me to think this way? Is it fair for me to resent what they do? I don't know anymore. It's just tearing me up.

I don't want to go to school next year because I love my schooling program now. But I need to get away from my family. I love my family a lot, so much, but it's TOO close. My mom doesn't understand that. I need a job, but she's too busy to go to the high school and get me working papers.

 I'm just so lost and bottled up that I don't know how to cry. I need some words of encouragement or advise. I came close to cutting the other night when I was arguing with a friend…I'm just so ready to snap. I hate cutting. But nothing else lets my mind numb. It's all I know that does…and that's what my mind resorts to. I don't want to do it, what else do I have though.

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