what do i say, how do i say it. how do i tell her that i like her. i can see it now, i m setting right next to her on the bus, i then say to her hi there your cute. then the next thing i see heading straight for my face is a slap, and then the pain of my face hits me with the force of a train. leaving a bright red mark on me. causing my heart to hurt.

i don't want to get hurt, and at the same time i don't want to hurt her. i really like her shes cute, nice, fun to be around. not mean. shes cool and has friends.

what do i do, my bro said to start with small talk, my sister in law said that i need guts.i need to change. but how. how do i tell her that l like her a lot?

will the pain hurt for a long time? will it cause my heart to fall apart leaving me with emotions? will my tears just stop and there for  i will never be ably to cry again?

i am new to this like girls thing. i was always  the kid that wanted to be alone, in the dark with the world gone. no sound, time still. no love , no hate, nothing but the sound of my breath as it hits the walls around me. 

what has changed, how did i change? it feels so new to me to be around other people.

i like it… and at or around the same time i don't like it cause if i say thous few small words may end up causing me so much pain. that i may end up going back to my old self. i really don't want that to happen.