Well, i'm gonna be honest with everyone..i cut again on Wednesday, causing my 5 month cut free streak to end.

I'm really sad about it, but i was so upset, i was crying uncontrollably, everything was spinning, i was feeling sick, i didn't know what to do, i couldn't sleep, and the blade was staring me down. i did it about 15 times, but they were light (because i had to work with my mom on Saturday and i had to make sure they wouldn't be noticeable), so they healed pretty quick. 

Basically, my school work is pressing down on me and i can't handle it anymore. just going day by day is hard enough. I have literally 4 essays due by monday and a fifth by tuesday, 2 project presentations this week, and 5 independent study projects for excel due by the 15th. I'm having trouble just trying to keep my cool.

I'm okay now though, the urges are no longer coming as bad and there are very few times when i wanna hit. i'm going airsofting on the 17th though, so hopefully that will be enough pain to last me a couple of weeks/months.

Again, i'm really sorry and i'll try harder next time… 

FyreSakura