I smoked today and I feel like people are watching me like I am too young to do it. I know this because one of my professors told me. She said I am too young to smoke. I didn't feel like arguing on such a depressing day, so I did not bother defending myself. Though I must say I don't recall saying something other than "No I'm not". I don't think I looked at her face. It was too bright out and I don't know why but I think it is very ironic that she was wearing blue.
Seriolsly Allen Kar is a genious, at least about smoking (the book about loosing weight was a pile of bullshit and it's not just my opinion).
Even at the early stages my max was 3 days. In that stage less than 24 hours. But he accualy made my mind different about it. I'm not going perfectly by the plan, it's still hard but it's amazing enough for me. I just want to get out of this totally because then maybe i will feel different about other stuff too like food and everything but I will never never fall in this again. I caughed like crazy last few months and even quit a job because it started to get hard and all the money i've been waisting…
Seriosly one of the motivations is that now I can get myself an Ice Cofee whenever I want and don't feel guilty about the money because I would've spend on siggaretes more anyway!
And now I can remove one issue from my list!! Hope they all get removed, Accualy I will keep it here a bit longer just till the nicotine will leave the body, becasue the addiction in my mind I aleady killed!
Last thing to say, seriosly check out his book…
Well to tell you guys the truth i been through alot, is very hard for me to open up to people. Is ok, i fell alot better now, thanks for some ppl on this site, i finally understood what my problem was and how i can manage it. I still got to work on in from time to time, believe me!! i attack myselft alot and lately i been hearing some good advices that have help me out alot!!
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