Living with this for years. Still waiting for some relief from panic attacks. Anyone have any suggestions besides meds?

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Depression, has always been a big issue with me like I imagine it being a big issue with everyone else. Life is too simple, we work, drive our cars, go to school, all in hopes of reaching some goal, some shiny brass ring at the top of a big ugly pile of old furniture, splintered, and moldy. You have to climb this pile of junk in order to get to prize. For me it seems like my pile of junk smoothed out into, well just a big pile of nothing, I had to keep climbing, because I was too far up to turn around, and going forward just seemed pointless because I lost sight of my brass ring a long time ago. so I just kept slowly climbing, no challenge, no reward. I needed something to avert my attention to other things. I was depressed. I was going nowhere. So I called up the shrink, had myself evaluated, and started taking Buproprion and Methylphenidate. The doctor didn't tell me I shouldn't take it if I had anxiety, he didn't know that much about me. he didn't care. The medicine made me worse. I had to quit drinking alcohol and smoking weed. These are the staples of my small town existence, I'm shy when I'm sober, I'm awkward. It's horrible. The pills made my small town existence a lot more boring. Until the fear grasped a hold of my weary frame. panic stricken, I called my mother. I told her I might be having a seizure, pins and needles, left arm. Top of head numb, heart racing. The cool air from outside barely makes it better, and I barely sleep for three days. Why, did I have to replace a completely bearable since of loneliness and hopelessness, with a sense of fear, and loneliness and hopelessness and panic. The doctors were of little use to me, they said you should have made it more clear to us that you had anxiety problems, take two more one hundred question long tests, and Ill send them in for evaluation…. no! I know what your going to say. so you can know what drug to try next, but no. Im through. So I quit. Ive since found comfort in Marijuana and meditation, art and thought. depression creeps up on me from time to time, and I still have social anxiety, but I understand that these are the processes that are a part of me. hopefully I can harness that negative energy and turn it into something positive. Ignoring it is not right, and I learned that the hard way. but it was a great lesson and I feel better for it.

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I'm young, 24 and active, with two small children. My Anxiety arrose from a combination of illness and life stress. I'm a military wife and we have gone through two deployments and although the soldiers are checked and treated for PTSD the spouses are ignored. No, we at home weren't in fear of our own dealth or subjected to first hand horrors of war, but we lived with real fear everyday of our loved ones being hurt or killed and we expose ourselves to the war more by focusing on it everyday. I found that the most helpfull tools for coping with GAD where natural. Things like breathing excersises and relaxation techniques help more than poisionus medications.

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