so I feel like crying 24/7.  I mean lil things make me happy but also hurt me.  My school mates have been abusing me since day 1 and now i can't stand it.  I saids i would hurt a guy so the school searched my locker.  they found all my poetry about suicide, abuse, and rape.  So i had to get a psych evalutuaon.  i'm just manically depressed!  it doesn't matetr bcuz ppl say they r goin to get me expelled.  i'm screwed cuz everyone only hears 1 side of the story so ppl think i'm crazy. so some ppl think im crazy bcuz they can't beleive their kids would tell me to kill myslef and treat me like shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!  so now i have to get out of my classes so others won't hurt me.  they all say i hate them, but i never did anythign as bad as what they do to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Why do they hate me so much???????????????????

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I had a fight with my ex again… I don't know why I call him my ex, we never broke up really. There is this girl that he likes, he tells me all the things he does with her every detail of how she kisses & how much he wants her & I hate him for it more than I can express. But at the same time I love him to much to give him up all together.

So for the first time in over a year I slept for 16 hours. A new record for me, I've never actually slept that long. One of those dead dreamless sleeps, were there is no emotional outlet. I almost never sleep that way, I usually have very intense dreams where I'm not sure if I'm awake or if I'm dreaming. 

I want him to stop talking to her & see only me but I don't think he will. I'm just not enough for him. As usual he breaks my heart but makes me feel like I can't do without him. 

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