i think iam gay,because in my science class . this girl and me sat next to each other.her elbow and mine kept tounching and it felt good to me. i felt my heart start to beep fast,and it felt good when this girl kept her elbow there. after that i really think iam gay. i think i have feelings for this girl also. but iam not telling anybody that,because this hates gays,and she will just break my heart in the process. i think iam going to tell everybody iam gay in high school. instead of middle school,but my mom and dad are going to hate me,and maybe kick me out of the house.

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i learned today that the girl i dreamnt have alot in common. i don't what that means ,oh well,i still haven't figure if iam gay or not. still trying to figure that out. oh yeah i think yaoi is great. if you don't know what that means,it's boyxboy realtionship. everybody at my school hates it.

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I was on here reading some of the messages I recieved and my mom came in the room and started reading and she flipped out.  She went as far as calling our preacher to tell me that I was going to burn in hell.  She kicked me out and told me that I needed phychhiatric help for being gay.  I told her that i'm not going to change and theres nothing wrong with me.  She told me that she never wanted to see me again.  I left and haven't talked to her in a few weeks.  And during this time I had to change partners at work and my new partner is gay.  I have talked to her about whats going on and she told me about her expirence and its about the same as mine.  She has really helped me alot and we went to a Gay and lesbiean support center where I talked to a counselor there.  After talking to them I feel like a completely different person.  I know that i'm not wrong and shouldn't feel ashamed to be gay. 

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about the person I love.  He's sweet, kind, gentle, loving… but he's none of those things to me.  He shows me his darker side; the sadness, anguish, pain… And I love him so much.

That of course begs the question: Is Chase gay? I would say no for the simple fact that I'm not attracted to either gender. I hate sex and have never been attracted to anyone else before.  Just this one person.  This is the only person I've ever wanted to be with not because of their gender, but because I sincerely love them…

My only goal in life is to make him happy, but he seems happier away from me than with me.  That alone hurts so much… but this otherwise generous person takes and takes and nevereven asks how I'm doing.  Doesn't say thank you or anything. He said I hurt him without realizing and even though I try to make it up to him every single day, it doesn't seem to matter.

Every time I try to get over this mess, he announces his return because he misses the people I spend time with.  And the cycle repeats.  I don't want him to go away; only to see that I care.  But years of ignorance and abandonment have made me sad and bitter.  All the lies he's told; all the stupid, self-defacating things I've done jsut to makehim happy… where does it end?

I walked away and he told me he's coming back; but not for me.  I know that butthese feelings have me acting a fool once again.

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This is my first time doing a Blog, and looking for answers online and/or support for something I don't know how to handle as a Parent.  Our son is 18 years old.  He has always been one of those kids that "marched to the beat of his own drum".  I have always respected that about him, and have always told him so.  My boys are everything to me and their Dad.  We had them in our early twenties, and not a day goes by that I regret being their Mom.  Not one!  So what is my problem?  The day before New Years Eve he came to his Dad first and then wanted to speak to me, and told us that he didn't know if he was, but thinks he may be Bi-sexual and is really confused.  It came out during the conversation, he actually had been going through a bout of  depression a few months ago, and he recently broke up with his girlfriend, whom his first sexual experience with did not go well. We are religious, and have talked openly about, even though we would like them to be abstinant until marriage, we are not stupid, and new that whatever decision they each make for themselves about feeling the timing is right, to always be responsible, and to remember that both parties are just as responsible as the other.  In other words, just because a guy can't physically get pregnant, it doesn't make him any less responsible.  Now we deal with this.  I have always thought of myself as a liberal thinker on many fronts.  But like I told my son, this is different because he is my son.  The confusion I see him going through is heart wrenching.  His Dad feels like he was shot, even though he would never show my son this.  We are still in a state of shock.  We have started asking more questions about who he is hanging out with, and he is being more evasive.  He is a good kid, calls when he is going to be late, and basically has not given us problems that I gave my Mom when I was rebelling as a teenager.  I love him with all my heart.  I want him happy, and safe, I just don't know how to help him, or even if I am supposed to besides talking  to him when he wants to talk.  I know I can't push.  I feel alone.

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on the date 12-22-o7 i had a dream about this girl at my school. we were get sexual. i don't know what the dream meant but i'm sacred to how i'm going to react when i go back to school on 1-7-08. does that dream mean that i'm gay or not? do i tell her i dreamnt about her or not? i'm really confused now. somebody please help me.:(

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yesterday my brother told my mom that i may be gay. and my mom got really anagry when she heard that. she said i have to be straight so it could be right. i'm really confused. please somebody help me out on this.

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