I dont know why but i feel so depressed right now i just want to die. i feel like it would solve everything and it would be great to not see any one suffer any more.

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hey guys, i had a big change in my life recently, iam onefi of the presidents on a anime club!! me and my only friend in real life made it up, hes got lots of friends, i dont got any friends that are as close as him, we are only friends and people think we are actually going out, i hate it!, plus i got a boyfriend i dont even like anymore, i dont know why, i guess….i dont know thats happening to my "love life" anymore. Either way i dont want to think about that, i am really happy because we have ourself and anime club, YAY!!!!

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hey guys, i had a big change in my life recently, iam onefi of the presidents on a anime club!! me and my only friend in real life made it up, hes got lots of friends, i dont got any friends that are as close as him, we are only friends and people think we are actually going out, i hate it!, plus i got a boyfriend i dont even like anymore, i dont know why, i guess….i dont know thats happening to my "love life" anymore. Either way i dont want to think about that, i am really happy because we have ourself and anime club, YAY!!!!

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i just realize that i will be going to the 9th grade and i will meet new people. the friends that i have right now are going to leave me just like the rest. iam no good at making friends. so how will i survive highschool. i will be friend less and depressed and then maybe kill myself. i hate feeling alone.

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Living with this for years. Still waiting for some relief from panic attacks. Anyone have any suggestions besides meds?

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As many know, I work in the dining room of a retirement center.  On weekends, some of the residents' adult offspring come to visit and join them at lunch. 

One of these visitors is a horrible woman who treats her parents like little kids.  Talks down to them, speaks for them, makes decisions for them as if they were incapable of making their own.  These are wonderful people who are perfectly capable of thinking for themselves, and it just makes me so mad to see them robbed of their dignity like that.  Especially when the person doing it is someone for whom they did everything.

I complained to the supervisor about her yesterday.  I don't know if anything can be done, though.  If she overheard me, she'll probably try to make trouble for me.  I don't care.  If she overheard me, at least she knows that someone saw what she does.  Not that it probably matters to her.

Anyway, just venting to get it out of my system as she'll probably be there again today.

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I have known my kids father for ten years. We've been in a relationship for about eight years. Together we have three children. Our kids are happy, well taken care of and very loved! However, their dad and I have never been so distant from each other. Both of us have made mistakes but he refuses to forgive me for doing something that he had also done in the past. Since then he has treated me so badly. He's not bitter, he's disgusted even though what I did happened almost 3 years ago. He's hypocritical and is determined to make me suffer for the rest of my life. He has told me so. There is no trust. He is absolutely controlling to the point where at times I cannot leave the house, check the mail or even answer the phone. These drastic things have only been going on for the past year but it seems like year after year it gets worse and worse. We live in a very nice home, the kids are in excellent schools and I don't want any of that to change. I am so miserable and desperate to get away from his abuse and control but I'm torn.

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I finally managed to put up an avatar that didn't look like a black smudge!  Yay!  I might actually be figuring out this tech stuff!  (Yeah, right)  I've been trying for a long time to get it and I finally did.

I'm still having some frustration in my personal and work life, but I think I'm finally starting to figure things out in that area, as well. 

Even a little progress is still progress.

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Today is going good everything seems right but that can be scary actualy because every time I have a good day the next is horrible. I hope im not right

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This has to be the worst day for me when it came to coping with my depression. It’s not that I wanted to cut but I felt worthless and that I’m falling farther and farther into this pit. My chest has been literally aching nonstop for hours. I try to smile, but I can’t fake. It’s just not like me to do something like that. So my mom’s getting worried and wants to schedule a pediatrics appointment for a blood test. I really don’t want to. I don’t have anything against my doctor but…ICK. I just don’t like it. You think I would have gotten over it considering my dad works for the same medical practice. 

The only person who understands the problems with my school work is Lizzie and even she can’t help me because she’s a year younger. My problem is turning in the work because it’s crappy and any time I get anything less than an A my parents want to bite my head off. They say that I know I can do better blah blah blah. This is an even worse problem with Algebra. I think my teacher got the jist of my issue by now but I can tell she’s getting annoyed that I haven’t turned in my over due assessments. Same with my History and English teacher. The school year’s almost over and I still have almost a dozen assignments that are either half started or not being close to started. 

 Another thing on my mind is that my grandad had his heart surgery earlier today. I can’t remember what they were placing in. I tried to talk to my aunt and my grandma but the reception was sucky.

I’ve seriously been pondering my purpose. It’s really tormenting. I wrote a short poem awhile ago about how I feel;

 ”A cycle is all I live. A cycle is all I am. A cycle is what I hate. Would it be so wrong to break?” I know it sounds selfish but I’m feeling like there is not going to be a break in this drowning any time soon for me to breathe long enough so that I can relieve myself from this depression.

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