November 29, 2009
I Dont Know
I just get psoriasis for 5months and it is growing so fast… i dont wew it come from and what causes that trigger this disease. I feel completely different after getting this disease, all my life become horrible… all the side effect, mental, pschology, and psoriasis itself is killing me softly… now im taking "Methotrexate" which is the strongest pill for psoriasis that make so extremely fatigue everyday and the steroids that ive been applying all over my body… all that stuff, i cant stand it no more! i just a little kid… 18 years old, live alone and my parents is in other country, can you think how hard for me to start my day… i get depress, frustrated, and all that kind of things that go into my mind… ive been to 6 different doctor in different countries… but they cant help me. i just cant imagine, having this disease in my body until i die, it is better to die now then later… i dont have anybody here, i dont have friends, i dont have people that i talk to, i dont have any girlfriend because they thought that im disgusting. i cry, pray, church, all to make me better, but nothing change… got worst and worst…
if you guys ready my blog, can you just pray for me? it is more than enough.
for the people that got the same disease like me, dont lose hope, keep faith, maybe you there is miracle for you or i dont know that make you better…
there are miracles, hope, god but i think its not for me!

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